Education is Essential

Well......I am feeling less intense today after a good night's sleep.



I think that it can get rather consuming for me to deal with my new anti-Mormon attitudes.



I also think that where other Ex-Mormons, and Mormons who no longer believe, happen to affiliate themselves is no business of mine. But I am still making sure I don't affiliate with anyone for a year.



I do have to find my own integrity.



I have done some reading on the LDS Church as it functions as a corporation, and how it may actually be an organization in decline:

http://www.utlm.org/onlineresources/riseandfalloftheldschurch.htm

This links to a long article that is up-to-date as of four years ago.

Basically, I had a feeling that the LDS Church was in decline, but nothing to back it up but the fact that the ward I was attending was getting less spiritual and seemed to have less people attending it. Basically, from my point of view, more people than I are actually sick of the organization.

Anyway, I just ordered six books on Amazon so that I could take care of my intellectual curiosity about Mormonism and other topics I am interested in. I have decided I need to educate myself about all of the ideas out there that I am interested in. It will broaden my mind. And by the end of my year of solitude I will have figured out a lot that I am wondering about. And I will be clued in to more issues and more strategies I can take for my life. Basically, I am going to broaden my mind so that my life will not turn into a single serving of unseasoned hash browns.

I think I am already a smart person. I have even been flattered countless times by others praising my intellect or my creativity. The problem is that no matter how smart you are, if you don't keep up your mind and your interests and make sure your lifestyle is healthy, you won't be very happy. And you will get quite bored. And bored people get into a lot of trouble. Bored people find things to do. That is what I found out my freshman year of college.