Looking Back

I have been reading through the first three entries on this blog. It occurs to me that I have changed my tune. It was easier for me to say that I had good years in my childhood in the LDS Church.

Now, I have gotten in touch with the total negativity of being an active member of this church in my adulthood.

It seems that childhood is such an innocent time. And it seems that being a member of the LDS Church was easier for children, particularly in the seventies and eighties, the decades of my childhood. People are careful with children. And if LDS people are being harder on children now, I am appalled. Childhood is a time of innocence that should have a kind of bliss and a carefree quality. The world is bad enough without over-programming your children.

I really do believe, somehow, that being LDS, for each and every member of the church, even around the whole world, has become much harder. I don't know what has happened, but it just has become harder. Perhaps the LDS Church is farther from the truth than it used to be.

It seems that one would think that the LDS Church never had enough truth, due to the strange doctrines that were openly promoted in the days of Joseph Smith and Brigham Young. But after a while, the doctrines became less bad. Polygamy and the Danites seem to have gone away, particularly after Utah became an actual state in the United States of America. But after a while, the religion started to get worse again. I have seen Mormonism get more coarse and merciless. And I am afraid that certain horrifying doctrines may start to dominate the average LDS Church members mind. I do not believe the LDS Church is a stable organization.