I'm Not a NOM

Hmmmmm......It seems that I was NOM for a day.

I am not a NOM. I think I really thought that I was constructing a plan in my head. I thought that in a year, I would pick a ward, visit its meetings often, and disrupt it. Maybe for a month or two. Then I thought that I was going to write several letters to the prophet. My rationale was that I still cared about the Church and that I was going to help it start to get rid of its corruption. I have to say that this sounded more appealing than being anti-Mormon.

However, at this point I don't want to have much more to do with the LDS Church. I am very sick of it. And, yesterday, the thought that I had more duty towards it made me feel kind of lousy inside. I felt just a little bit sick. I thought I was being principled. But really, my duty is not towards the Church anymore. It is to myself.

I think that it is indeed my duty to stay off of exmormon.org. The message board is so anti-Mormon that I cannot help but wonder if anyone on it is truly being honest about their experiences with Mormonism. They just agree with anti-Mormon statements that are posted and don't think about what they are really saying.

When I posted on the NOM board that I still enjoy the Book of Mormon, I did it out of shock that no one on the exmormon board had any respect for my heritage or opinion. The exmormon board is so bad that people start thinking they are NOM's. Actually, you don't have to back to your NOM-hood to despise hate speech that lacks logic or truth. The people on exmormon.org, or RFM, hate religions of all kinds. They hate spirituality of all kinds. Some of them hate goodness of all kinds. That's not my kind of people. And that certainly is not me.

I like the NOM's because they have standards. Being LDS told me that there were some standards that I could live. I little bit of deprivation every now and then was not a crime. Lots and lots of deprivation is a crime. But self-control has its charms. It can actually preserve your life. And it can help you achieve higher things than those who do not have self-control. The RFM posters have thrown the baby out with the bathwater. Some of them are lying about having been born into the church as well. They constantly say things that indicate they were converted to it at a certain point as adults and in a few years decided to leave and have nothing to do with it again. RFM is a good board for anger. But after you have gone through all of your anger, you start to hate it.

I admire the NOM's, even though I do not completely endorse their continued activity in the LDS Church. I might post on the NOM board every once and a while. They're cute people. See! I am definitely not anti-Mormon. I think the LDS Church would be different if it contained a higher level of people with the kindness, tolerance, and consideration of the NOM's. The LDS Church is shooting itself in the foot by discouraging NOM's from voicing their opinions. I think that many of them will either leave the LDS Church or form a break-off organization. The organization that breaks off may be so weird that the mainstream LDS Church will be embarrassed.

Watch out LDS Church! You never know what defectors will do with your material!

There are two other boards that I can post on where I don't have to be NOM or anti-Mormon. I can just be a Post Mormon or Ex-Mormon.